ah boon not in good mood

My ah boon not in very good mood these days.. must be cos its a new change in job lah.. but den again.. so xian..
Everytime.. he's not in a good mood.. I would think i am the cause of it!! Sometimes.. I try very hard to just be the good gerfren that I am infront of his frens.. but i can't.. i won't throw tempers or what.. but i'll just sit by myself and not want to socialise..and pple would think that we just quarrelled.. I mean.. how to socialise when i'm not in the mood.. Xiao ah!!!
I dunno lah... Sometimes.. I find it really difficult to tell someone about my problems.. I can't tell to those that do not know ah boon..cos they'll misjudge him.. I can't tell those who know ah boon cos i'm afraid they might go and tell him!! So tired!!! Dunno what to do!
Sighz.. I know this will pass.. it always does.. and when it passes.. i'll look at this entry in the near future and laugh at myself for being so silly to worry boutz such a small problem.. but den.......
Double sighz.. he always gets like this... Its this weird PMS thingy he goes through every few months.. and i really hate it.. He'll find fault with and make me upset.. and den turns around and tells me that he's not good to me.. blah blah blah.. I'm beginning to feel he's just saying it cos he just wants to say it.. He says it..but he doesn't do anything about it... I'm so tired.. I feel like crying!!!
Den there's this thing that happened this afternoon that would ordinarily make me pissed off if it happened to be any of my ex bfs.. but with him i just can't be angry with him.. I just can't.. cos i know he can really be really really mean and bad-tempered and i really dun want to quarrel with him..
I mean.. sometimes.. he'll complain bout his life and stuffz... and everytime when he tells me these things... i just wanna hug him and tell him that its alright..and i'll stand by him no matter what.. but i can't..because he can get really chauvanistic.. and i dun want him to feel that he's weak or a loser.. so i just tell him..that I love him...and i tell him that several times a day.. i just want to assure him that i'm here that i'll be here for him..no matter what.. but he blew at me..and said things like.. "why do you always have to say I love you so many times a day!! You not xian one ah?" i was so upset.. but i couldnt' do anything..sighz.. maybe i'm really very lor sor!!!
I just want him to be the cheery ah boon again.. i hope that day is tmr!!! Forgive me...i'm just ranting.. i'm not angry with him.. i just want to vent it in my blog.
I have 2 pimples near my mouth... ah boon say.. i eat already never clean my mouth properlY!!! hahaha
me love him much much